Tuesday, September 14, 2010

No new is good news

Or is it? There's really nothing interesting going on in our family which while it makes for peaceful times on the homefront makes for very boring blogging.

Hubs and I are doing a lot of things with our church which excites us. It amazes and humbles me to see God working in our family.

R has been in school for about a month now. She got over a virus last week. Poor kid has missed so much school so early. Her immune system sucks. I sort of blame myself for not being able to breast feed. That and it dawned on me during a sleepless night that it may be from having a fever and her having a fever at birth.

K has nothing to report. He's had a couple of issues that he continues to try to lie about. He wants to go live with his mom after Christmas. Hubs and I just asked that he take these weeks that he finally visiting with his mom to get to know her since she did go almost 5 years without really trying to regularly see him. We want him to be happy. He feels he has no friends in school but at the same time we don't want him to get hurt. We had a good sit down talk with him last weekend which I think maybe did everyone a lot of good. K cried quite a bit, he's pretty upset that he hasn't been able to get to know his mom. It hurts my heart to see him so upset but I am glad that he is getting what he needs from this relationship that we and therapy were not able to solve for him.

Baby New Guy is still cooking away. We have 8 weeks before he comes into the world and are pretty prepared. Now we are just waiting for those last minute items you typically get from a shower which will be taking place in a couple of weeks.  I've only gained 4 pounds so far. When asked by the doctor if this was intentional I was able to enthusiastically reply nope, for the first time in my fat girl life I have been able to eat cheeseburgers and drink shakes regularly without adding additional dimples.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

mood swing

I'm just annoyed today. I don't know if I'm having a mood swing or just being overly picky.

I came home from work to find a bunch of rules broken by K this week that I have been too tired to catch. I am just so freaking sick of being the only grown up in our house. I have to do the cooking, the cleaning, the shopping, the bill paying. I make the lunches, give the baths and do everything for these kids.  Why don't I ever a get a flipping night off?

I am tired of always being the bad guy and not getting to be the buddy like the other parental units in our situation.

I'm tired of being broke. I'm tired of not getting support be it parental or monetarily. I'm tired of things not changing.

I'm tired of two kids who think that my rules don't matter and that they can ignore me.  They are both too old to pretend they don't know what the rules are.

I'm tired of being a whine bag.

Is anyone else tired of this too?