low key

Today has been shockingly low key. It's a nice change.

I attended my first manager meeting at work today even though I am not a manager.  I am what is termed a "senior" which means basically.............I don't know yet.

I'm beginning to think I will never be promoted at this place but am not quite sure that I really want to be either.  I say this but everytime someone who has been there 3 months gets promoted over me I get kinda pissed so obviously that's not true.

I am just too ambitious to stay in the same spot as senior peon. I am 28 and would like to start my career. This is why I was going to school after a 10 year break after high school but after 1 and a half terms had to withdraw due to issues with my pregnancy. Unfortunately the college I was attending decided they would no longer offering online courses which means the bed rest I am on that prohibits me from going to school but allows me to work because while school may pay in the long run, it isn't paying the bills right now.

Baby Wit is fine. He just is making life very tough for mommy.  I have been having issues with being dehydrated my entire pregnancy and so low and behold almost passed out in the front yard while chatting with the neighbor.

Being not a small girl I decided my giant self passed out on the side walk would not be cute so I came in to make dinner for the pygmies.

The pygmies are ACTUALLY getting along today which is awesome and worries that they are plotting against me.  K while saying grace tonight said "Dear God thanks for giving me such a cool sister and awesome mom."

This just goes to show no matter how frustrated I get with K, he is still that sweet little man that I know he can.

Just like his mother

I'm wondering how K can only see the bio mom once a year and still act just like her at times.

You know the type of person she is....who argues just to argue. You can tell her the sky is blue and just for the sake of being difficult she will say it's green. The rules don't apply to her. We can tell this by her lack of parenting and lack of child support payment.

It's not like we can call her to come get him either when he is driving us crazy. She will make up some excuse as to why she can't.

I know. I've tried.

When Kevin and I got married I would call her once a week to see if she wanted him that weekend.  I wanted to be that step mom that maybe could bridge the brokeness that poor little K has been presented in his short 3 years.  After a few weeks I guess she ran out of excuses though so she just stopped returning my calls.

I love the little guy but it seems that at 9 he is pubescent and wants to be out of control. He thinks my rules don't mean shit and refuses to do anything I ask.  This is my mind is not fair to his sister or the new baby that is on the way.  R is 5 and follows the rules better than he does. He's trying to teach her to lie to us to keep her from telling us when he is doing something wrong.

I don't know if it's the lack of his ADHD medicine while he's on summer break but I don't know what to do.

We started therapy last month. Hopefully this helps him deal with any issue he may have.